For Cho Hyunju ♡

the reason i decided to make this carrd is because hyunju is my BPD favorite person and i want everyone to know how much i love and care for her, as well as how amazing she is as a person !!from the first moment she was shown in season two, i knew she was going to be my favorite character, but i never thought she would become so important to me like this. i love her so much. my love for her is purely platonic, but that does not make it any less important!! i look up to her in so many ways, and i do my best to make her proud each day. her existence helps me get through each day, it helps me keep on living and being productive. i truly believe that if hyunju was real, she would be a motherly friend to me.hyunju also helps me feel more confident in myself as a transgender person. despite losing so much by coming out as trans, she still continued to keep going in life and do her best always. she lost her job and she lost the support of her family, yet she continued living and standing her ground in order to live as her true self. when i feel like i'm "not trans enough" or when i feel very dysphoric, i think about how hyunju felt the same way and got through it.hyunju's bravery is something i admire a lot. she is more brave than i can ever expect to be in my entire life. she is such a strong woman, both physically and emotionally. her physical strength and bravery from her experience in the military, combined with her emotional maturity and emotional intelligence makes her strong in every single way possible.hyunju is so kind and selfless. she is so compassionate and empathetic. she is always shown putting those she cares about before herself. even her own death was in part due to her never ending selflessness and kindness. she could have easily left through that exit door alone, leaving junhee and geumja behind with the baby. however, she realized that she could not go on with the guilt of leaving them behind. she knew that they were two very vulnerable people in the games, and she knew that they needed her protection. her care for others is also shown when she paired up with youngmi in mingle. youngmi was emotionally vulnerable due to the stress of the death and danger of the games. hyunju saw youngmi and knew she needed protection and care. she made sure that youngmi was with her at all times during mingle. when youngmi tripped and was no longer right behind hyunju, hyunju noticed and panicked a lot. she even tried to go back to youngmi and save her, despite knowing that she didn't have enough time. up until the very moment youngmi died, hyunju was there for her. she faced youngmi through the door as they both called for each other. she was visibly distressed and trying to get her hand through the small door to reach youngmi, even though she realistically knew it wasnt possible. after youngmi died, hyunju screamed at and pushed myunggi who had closed the door on her. she cared so deeply about youngmi, despite only knowing her for a couple days.hyunju is so physically beautiful as well!!! she expresses being very insecure about her appearance. there is a scene where she is rinsing her face with water from the sink. she is shown looking at herself in the mirror sadly while putting her own hand on her cheek. this scene was so obviously a representation of her gender dysphoria and how she felt unattractive. this scene made me so sad to see because i have had that exact feeling myself so many times and i know it is so so so painful. i wish every single day that she was real so that i could tell her how beautiful she is and how she passes so well. i wish that i could point out all of the beautiful aspects of her such as her eyes, her nose, her mouth, her cheeks,,,,, really just her entire face honestly. despite what she believes, her body is also so beautiful, and so feminine. i wish that she was able to see how many people around her found her physically beautiful.hyunju is just overall an absolute angel. she is such an amazing human being and there is genuinely no reason to dislike her in the slightest. i feel so angry and upset whenever someone says something negative about her. she doesn't deserve anything bad ever because she is so perfect. she truly deserves every single good thing in the world and i wish bad things upon anyone who ever wrongs her.i have so many things to thank hyunju for. thank you for comforting me every day. thank you for making me feel so happy. thank you for coming into my life and making it more worth living. i'm so grateful for your existence because you make it easier for me to get through each and every day. thank you for showing me how to stay strong even in hard times.i believe my love for hyunju goes much further than anyone else's, despite only being platonic. hyunju is one of the most important people in my life. my attachment to her goes beyond what neurotypical and/or people without BPD could ever experience. words will never be able to fully express my feelings towards hyunju, but i hope that this carrd can at least show part of my love for her.

My Hyunju Headcanons ♡

General Headcanons:
• Lesbian
• Dating Youngmi
• Close friends with Junhee, Yongsik, and Geumja
• Loves children, but has none of her own
• Works as a preschool or kindergarten teacher
• Parents of her students love her a lot
• Lives in Thailand in an apartment with Youngmi

Headcanons about her and I's friendship:
• She sees me as a younger sibling
• She is always giving me the best life advice
• She teases me about how much shorter I am than her

Gallery ♡